Loosing it
I am confused about me. A bit of an identity crisis I suppose. In all honestly, going away and having fun, and actually liking who I was- just reminded me of how unhappy I am at home. Not really any one thing in particular- more of an overall dissatisfaction. I'm just in so many transitions right now- changing churches, changing homes, friends leaving, changes at work... Nothing by itself is huge, but altogether I am overwhelmed. I'm not really sure what feelings and emotions belong to which situations and changes. I want desperately to lean on my rock- and feel His perfect strength surge through me. For whatever reason, maybe it is pride, I can't seem to get there. Even now, as I begin to fall to my knees before the throne of grace, there seems to be a wall of steel... The sound of my own hand weakly hitting the cold metal begins to mimic the sound of my own fragile heart beating. slower. slower. slower...
posted by Elizabeth @ 2:13:00 PM
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