i found grace

"But the trouble with deep belief is that it costs something. And there
is something inside me, some selfish beast of a subtle thing that doesn't like
the truth at all because it carries responsibility, and if I actually beleive
these things I have to do something about them. It is so, so cumbersome to
believe anything. And it isn't cool.
...The problem with Christian belief- I mean the real Christian belief,
the belief that there is a God and a devil and a heaven and a hell- is that it
is not a fashionable thing to believe."

I am learning to believe better things. I am learning to believe that
other people exist, that fashion is not truth; rather, Jesus is the most
important figure in history, and the gospel is the most powerful force in the
universe. I am learning not to be passionate about empty things, but to cultivate
passion for justice, grace, truth, and communicate the idea that Jesus likes
people, and even loves them."